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Saidul Hassan

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In The Year 2000

18 Nov, 2014 By Saidul Hassan · Filed Under: Privy

In The Year 2000

Year 2000 winter, life seems to be at it's end.

Year 2000 winter, life seems to be at it's end.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

The whole year and the previous one, an ugly creature surfaced from within myself and destroyed whatever was mine and my family's dignity.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

I started abusing drugs heavily and completely destroy my social and academic life.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

Somehow I still survived college w/decent result, not good enough to be admitted to any reputed university in any good subject I had wished.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

The best I did in admission test was at JU in BBA, waiting list, could be possible if I could use my dad's freedom fighter quota.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

But fate took a prank on me as he never applied for the quota and getting his papers in place required more time than I had at that time.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

So only chance (slim) was from the usual waiting list but I was way behind the list to expect admission.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

On the day I was scheduled to meet the faculty and try my luck, I was 3 hours late.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

It was without any reasonable reason, mostly because I knew I don't have any chance there.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

So when I got there on the afternoon, the official said I missed my chance and the admission is closed.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

People from 30 position behind me was even admitted.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

Okay, he'll fell apart on me as I realized I had only one good chance and I missed it, for nothing but my own fault, again.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

Later I came to know my best friend got admitted who actually passed the exam cause I helped him in the test and his dad had influence.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

My family moved to Chittagong few days later.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

And I was completely wasted with drugs at that time.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

A week later I realized I'm not in Dhaka anymore.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

I found myself in an alien city, without friends, money, nothing at all that's familiar. Not even the local people's language.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

Or even the culture, or even the public transport system. Only thing that felt good at that time was the cleanliness of the city.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

And perhaps the hilly terrain.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

It wasn't long before I started to realize, live has started to payback.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

I had absolutely nothing to do, nowhere to go, nobody to talk to, and no pennies.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

I remember I even didn't have money to buy tea or cigarettes once in a day, sometimes for weeks.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

After a few months things started to settle with me.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

Opened my eyes for the first time and looked around. My life reflected my life for the past few years and my deeds.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 22, 2014

Then I knew, it was I myself who caused this and it's only I who can bring myself out of this misery.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

It was only then I started to feel less restless and calm.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

I walked all over the city, to unknown places and started to enjoy and realize how beautiful this port city is.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

I also started to read. My only getaway to run out of this life.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Didn't have much resources to read at that time.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

So I read anything and everything I could get my hands on.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Including stale newspapers, magazines, academic books, history, literatures, anything…

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

A girl from my top floor helped me on this a lot. I think she also liked spending time with me teaching me the way of life there.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And of course we discussed things I read and the next thing she'd get me to read.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Most of our discussion was on literature. Sometimes losing track of time.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

She had like dozens of siblings and her family was poor.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

I guess she also tried to escape from her usual life thorough the discussion we did.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

She was elder of her siblings. Aged for her marriage considering the average age of girls here for marriage.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

It was even started to surface a rumor that we're having an affair.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Btw, she's like 6-7 years older than me. She was more like an elder sister to me which I'd always craved for.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Though I can't deny after all this years that there had been moments of slippery minds, especially being never been with a women before.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Anyway, had more pressing matters on mind. I had to find a way to earn money, visit my lovely sincity Dhaka.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And most importantly getting admission to a university, that was the last chance in my academic year as well.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

So I started to tutor kids of my neighbour. Having a good academic record for 5th and 8th grade scholarships, people was eager to employ me!

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

So money problem started to go away.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And I started to visit Dhaka frequently to friends place.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Found lots of water under the bridge. Nobody was there from my past life.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And it was time to study for the admission tests too.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Funny that I even got some fans there who thought I am genius & bribed me to get help w/solving math problems, GMAT's analytical sections.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

So things started to roll out in my favor gradually.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

They knew I had a thing for liquors, so they even brought me to the sea beach once our twice a week.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

We'd spend the day under the shady trees, help them with math and analytical this and I kept drinking bears.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Gosh! Life felt so lavish at those moments.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

In fact those are one of the moments I still crave for to recreate!

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

About with admission of my own, somehow I was determined I must have to get admission to BBA from JU.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

When result came out, turned out I got admission everywhere I applied, of course except IBA.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

I heard some good things about the BBA from KU, so I consulted a guy from IBA who seemed smart. He suggested toward KU.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Also even though I've waited the whole year only to get to JU, when I really was there, it felt worthless.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And since an alien city turned out to be so beautiful, I was kind of secretly looking forward to invade another new city, Khulna!

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

However, as an academic decision, I was never sure if I was going to make the right decision.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And I actually regretted the whole first year. There was nothing to compare khulna to Chittagong.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

When I got there, it was like a poor, abandoned, district, or maybe an upozilla city.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

People are poor, meaner, selfish and absolutely nothing to get away. And the dialect, that sounded so funny.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Well, after this 14 years I'm glad and grateful that I had a life that I had.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Because that's how I found myself in a better way.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And in the struggle to find myself, I learned a lot of things that I'm made of today.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

But I guess there'll always be some moments you'll always keep in your golden chest and cherish them till death.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

And there'll be moments of confusion, moment of making a single decision that will change the course of your life.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

I wish and pray I always end up with realizing I'm happy for what I choose, not for what I was left with.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Other big stones I will always remember are a beautiful river named Boral, the first girl I feel in love with, and maybe Sonja.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

Maybe I'll become mushy again and share those stories with the world someday.

— Saidul Hassan (@SaidulHassan) September 23, 2014

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First published on 23 Sep, 2014 · Last updated 18 Nov, 2014 · Tagged With: Bangladesh, look back, memoir, twitter stories

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